not all endings are happily ever after. at least not for rgtt cdiv. and so we lost to cedar again. 3 :1. i'm not depressed, not disapointed. juz feeling very empty. the moment cedar girls start cheering like mad, i feel as though someone had scrapped off everything inside me, leaving me juz an empty shell and a pool of tears. this is the first time ever i actually cried on court, watching my team, the supporters and ripb and ritt, i juz want to cry everything out. the bitterness , the sadness and the madness. the enthusiasm that was still there moments ago dissapeared. i know we shouldn't look back at our failure and start blaming ourselves and everyone, but i really can't. i think, this feeling will be etched deeply into my memory. now, all i hope and want is for rgtt bdiv to thrash sss bdiv, so at least they can get champs and be happy, and give us a reason to be happy also. go rgtt bdiv ! you can do it. we believe in you. juz do your best . as wat valerie says, we may lose the champ title, but we will never lose the rgtt spirit. :) ok, i'm more or less cheered up now.
ok, i shall be really nice and congrat ritt cdiv on winning cat high in the finals . :) at least you guys get champs for cdiv right ? work hard next year, and hopefully ritt bdiv can thrash maris and sji next year. :) well done guys. oh ya, one point to note, ripb's cmu are really really synchro ok ? they rock at cheering. :) you guys should help us cheer at our bdiv match ! :)


the world is collapsing around me and i have totally no idea how to fix it, i can only look around hopelessly and stare. i'm such a useless idiot..

lilin cried her heart out.